Look around… see what other people are doing. Nine out of ten of those who are around my age are killing themselves.
Snowstorm today – took almost 2 hours to get home. I wonder if I have to go to work tomorrow. Wanted to reschedule the two interviewees to next week, but got pushed back. I guess I still have to go to work tomorrow. It’s not that I like to work from home. I hate working from home, but compared to wasting time on the road, I’d rather go with the first option.
Tonight, I stayed home and did bookkeeping. Wanted to file my tax, but dammit, I think there are still one or two slips that have yet to come. Can’t do nothing. Drew up a to-do list. Not that I like to-do list, but that’s the only way I get get things organized with the least brain cells killed. Sounds like there’re so many things that are out of my control.
Suddenly I thought about the girl in the movie “Devils wear Prada“. Is there really no choice? Or that’s what I chose? I think it’s the latter. I put all these on my shoulder. I want to be perfect. I want everything. I’m just too ambitious, ain’t I?
I want to modify the layout of this blog – I want it to be reader-friendly and nice looking, I want the content to be good and useful instead of just repeating myself.
I want to do a good job at work, but too bad I just don’t feel like working lately.
I want to learn a lot of things – finished Waltz, and going to start Rumba this Saturday. Photography class starts next Thursday. It’s been a challenge to make time to practice.
I want to reply to all the emails that I’ve received. At the same time, I don’t want to just drop one-two lines, I want to really say something. Still remember reading something on a management textbook – some people procrastinate because they want to be perfect. I’m not really a perfectionist, but I do want to put the heart to the email when I reply.
I want to study and do a lot of research, but the progress is very slow. Couldn’t wake up earlier in the morning, but if I stay up late, the next day I will feel the impact.
I want to see my friends once in a while and have some good chats.
I want to stay healthy and fit, but I’ve been staying in the office 9-10 hours straight Monday to Friday. I tried. The best I can do is twice a week.
I want to organize the 60GB of songs on my hard drive, but I know that’s impossible. (What an organize-freak)
I want to write about all the restaurants in the queue, but I don’t have the mood to do that.
Of course, I want to make more money. Anyone has any good idea?
Too much things, too little time. Tonight is almost over – what have I done?
Too many letters, too many numbers, too many login names, too many passwords, too many errands, too many tasks.
(Unlimited wants + Limited time) means that I don’t know what I’m doing, I don’t know what I really want.
Need to stop, feel and think.
(I’m just venting…)